I'm really missing You--
Although I find it hard to understand this
When You were completely there
As if I hadn't noticed
Lord, I love You so much that I will remember You
Carrying that cross for us
And You will help me dispose my sins
And segregate them properly
Lord, lead me closer to YOU!!!
CAUTION: hwag kang magbabasa kung kasama ka sa bcouncil o kaya'y kasama ka sa faircom.
i hate the fact that we had to pay 600 for the murder by the numbers raffle tickets. we were forced to sell those damn tickets to reach a preset 15000-peso remittance per section. and wth, poor me if i cant sell any of those freakin tickets. and who gets to get the grand prize? none other than my from-now-on closest friend (to the point na i get libres and free cash) Joanne Mendoza. hullo. what's up? kumusta naman yun. tapos meron pang fair ticket na kailangan ibenta mo for 85 pesos to your ex-schoolmates here in the metro. well duh, my friends are in the province. so i had to unreasonably pay for that grr ticket, which is impractical for me. and do you know what they tell you if you reason this out: the hell, sell it to your review center mates or to whoever is in the kalye. yebah. kumusta naman. tas, hindi lang ako mag-isa. andami-dami naming nagrereklamo sa fudge na ginawa sa pera namin. im super super broke. as in. i had to start the week fully loaded with cash, and at the end of monday, i was left with a meager 600 (without subtracting the fair ticket thing. so actually, 600-170 = 430) . the hell. that's equivalent to how much i had to pay for the raffle tickets. tapos kumusta naman ang five more days at the dorm? badtrip. i had to miss breakfasts. grr. arrghh. tapos, paano na lamang ang sarili kong interests katulad na lamang ng sonoluminescence? 150 din yun. (bale, 280 na lang pera ko). tas, wall-climbing-rappelling requirement sa alpha. minus another 50. wth. tapos ang addiction ko sa hkk. naka-apat ako + isang libre ni sir vlad. gruff. i super super hate the money loss. oo, alam kong may magandang pinatutunguhan yang pera kong yan, kahit di ko alam kung san napupunta. parang tax. pero sobra naman. super. wala na talaga akong pera. grave. salvaje. hush.
anyway, honestly, hindi ko masyadong na-enjoy yung fair. siguro partly dahil sa kakulangan ng pera. tapos, kabadtripan sa mundo. ginusto ko mang mag-bike eh hindi natuloy. whateber. kahit sinasabi ng iba na ito na ang pinakamasayang fair, i disagree. kill me if you want to. pero shut up. let me speak first. ang naenjoy ko lang ay ang pagiging fc ni edfrey at sinorpresa niya ako sa pamamagitan ng pag-baback-basa ng isang timba ng tubig. (fyi: nakapag-revenge naman ako). haha. niluto akong parang bacon. grabe. sunburnt na sunburnt ako. im super tan. i also hate the fact that i had to listen to people singing in the videoke while i dispensed redemption tickets. ang naenjoy ko ule ay ang pagtugtog ng the nerve. grabe, nakaka-lss yung the nerve. plus ang pinakaastig na up dharma down's oo. sobra, ang ganda. plus, (i can't believe i'm saying this) naaliw ako ng giniling festival. woohoo. and those were the only things i enjoyed. gruff still. woohoo!
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woohoo:
oo - UpdHARMADown
Hindi mo lang alam naiisip kita/Baka sakali nga maisip mo ako/Hindi mo lang alam hanggang sa gabi/Inaasam makita kang muli//
Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang/Panahon at ngayon ako'y iyong iniwan/Luhaan, sugatan, di mapakinabangan/Sana’y nagtanong ka lang kung di mo lang alam/Sana’y nagtanong ka lang kung di mo lang alam//
Ako’y iyong nasaktan/Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman/Hindi mo lang alam kay tagal ng panahon/Ako’y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa’yo//
Lumipas man ang araw na ubod ng saya/Hindi pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta/Kung ako’y nagkasala patawad na sana/Ang puso kong hangal ngayon lang nagmahal//
Wooh, hindi mo lang alam ako'y iyong nasaktan/O baka sakaling ngang maisip mo naman/Puro siya na lang… sana’y ako naman/Hindi mo lang alam ika'y minamasdan/Sana’y iyong mamalayan/Hindi mo lang alam hindi mo lang alam//
Kahit tayo'y magkaibigan lang/Bumabalik lahat sa tuwing nagkukulitan/Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman/Ako’y nandito lang hindi mo lang alam/Matalino ka naman//
Kung ikaw at ako ay tunay na bigo/Sa laro na ito ay dapat bang sumuko/Sana’y di ka na lang pala aking nakilala/Kung alam ko lang ako’y iyong masasaktan/Narito, sana’y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko//
Hindi mo lang alam ako'y iyong nasaktan/O baka sakali ngang maisip mo naman/Puro siya na lang.. sana’y ako naman/Hindi mo lang alam ika’y minamasdan/Sana’y iyong mamalayan/Hindi mo lang alam oh//
Malas mo/Ikaw ang natipuhan ko/Hindi mo lang alam ako’y iyong nasaktan//
> lss as of today... andoy, pano ka nag-enjoy???
HAPPY BIRTHDAY shayneness. sweetness sixteenness.
HAPPY 16th birthday sa pinakaMAMAHAL kong SHAYNE CORTEZ FAJUTAGANA.
*hugs and mwahs* GOD bless!!!
and i went to bed this early
that i nearly dreamt a lot
for i woke up very lately
and found that i have not
mottled sight of auric velvet
of the night's stillness in black vibrancy
dazed in fear of criscrossed voices
mantling the heart with piteous anxiety
opened and closed simultaneously--
those circles that betroth its own kind
the startling incident that pulled my soul
into a crevice i can never escape
falling and falling and falling and falling
and never ending
and never ending
and never ending
it haunts me forever in creeping trials
that are yet to be finished but will never be
and i feel the breeze tickling my muzzle-tip
as i realize the insanity and the normality
and the intensity of the living addiction:
the best they'll ever be
and i wake up into reality
and i sense some conformity
with what i felt and saw and heard
and i jumped into conclusion
that i'll liven my delight into sensitivity
